i couldn't help it.
i'm a Twitterer now.
josh groban has one so i thought OMG must have one too.
terribly fangirly of me, i know.
and i have a blog.

so, come check me out. follow me on twitter.
etc etc.

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and

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see you there! who knows, maybe you'll get updates on my next photoshoot.
seeing as i havent done one since march. oopsie..

i haven't really had any inspiration lately. i'm so bored with my face.
i think all of my effort is going into my drama play, art concepts and fashion designs.
what a genius i was to do two folio subjects. bah. fool.

anyways, i've been trying to find ideas for my vampire concept in my art folio.
its not going well.. im trying to go for something deeper than just a vampire burning in the sun, or some blood dripping from their lips. sigh.
i'm not saying anything about my decisions or concepts on here though, ha. paranoia will protect me.

school is driving me mad. i get ahead in two subjects and the others fall behind.
i fix up the others and they bored me to madness. so i go back to the other others but my inspirations gone. i hate my life sometimes, urgh.

why can't i just be a mermaid?

here in victoria, australia, over 30 people have been killed in the horrific bushfires during our hottest day on record- 46 degrees celsius, nearly 48 degrees in other towns to the north.
that's halfway towards boiling point.

terrified families have fled their homes, others who tried to defend their precious land and way of life have been destroyed in the path of the fires.
it's horrifying to think of, and it makes me feel so sad for all who are affected by this.
thankfully i don't live close to any of the affected areas, so my family is safe, but others aren't so lucky.

i was thinking today how people are always worrying about the country being flooded by melted ice caps, due to global warming, etc. and it seems so unlikely now, when our who country appears to be going up in flames.

just yesterday, on the "black saturday" in question - that title was given to the day by a local newspaper, i think - i walked to a park/playground near my house with a friend of my mum's. our pet whippet had jumped the fence yet again while i was at work, so the friend was helping me to look for her. last time she escaped, she went to the park, so we went there first. and this was around 8.30pm, maybe. the sun hadn't set yet, but the air was still thick with smoke from the distant bushfires.
walking through the long, dead grass, i noticed something a few metres to my left; a small, black and white, furry body. the heat of that day was so extreme, a poor little kitten had died from it.
if i'd had any plastic bags i would have taken the poor creature away, saved him or her from possible ridicule by the local dropkicks (idiots). but i couldn't.

if you read this, even if you're not in australia, please make sure you take care of your pets, whether its winter or summer. that kitten didn't deserve to die, and it probably could have been helped by someone having a water dish on their front steps, or by the owner who didn't try to keep it in the yard.

i've lived in this country my whole life, and it's still hard to comprehend how it can be so hot here.
something to do with the ozone layer, i think.

and i've never wanted to leave more than i do now.
i can't wait to escape this sandpit of a country and go somewhere cold forever.



i'm thinking of writing a poem about Black Saturday, so keep an eye out for it.

i'm rebelling.

against myself, conformity, everything i can think of.

i discovered the amazingly wicked awesomeness of RENT last month and it's made me realise so many things aren't worth caring about or fretting over, and i've decided to liberate myself.

therefore, i care even less about what others think of me: if i want to randomly start singing in the middle of the street, then i will. if i want to start mooing and shouting about the desert of cyberland, then i will!
it's a great feeling.
and i love it.
i love and at the same time ignore other people even more
i love my artwork
and i love myself.


this isn't the end of my rant but it might be the last YOU hear of it

peace.

i saw The Dark Knight yesterday!!!
(wednesday 16th). mum let me leave school early - we have a half-day on wednesdays for VCE - but i had to sorta uh..hehe..fake a sickie.. so i could go to the session in period 3. i had singing last night so i couldn't go to any other sessions haha.
so i had a good enough reason
it was SO WORTH IT. if there's anyone who hasn't seen it, well, you should.

don't worry, i won't spoil anything.
not that many people would read this, though.

i'm going again on sunday for my friend's birthday party. woot!


hmm and what else.
i got an A on my art project i could have made a couple of improvements, but oh well. we learn through our mistakes.
i'll take a photo and submit it here once i find my stupid charger for my camera.
grrrr. very annoying. and its one of those special batteries so it's not like i can just buy more.

i should have more photos + artwork up soon.
expect lots of pictures with themes about the Joker


peace.
ainsley.